皮囊第七季

第一代skins的演员们和我年龄相当，那段青春自然也是skins陪我度过，片头曲是我那时的手机铃声，今日再听，依旧百感交集，泫然欲泣。

第一代的片头曲清澈简洁，视频迷幻中不乏青涩质朴；而Emily的第二代，片头制作只得上代的皮毛。

到了Mini的第三代，电音里多了些压抑沉重；剧情和拍摄中刻意为之的感觉愈发严重，虽然内心十分偏爱Mini，也没将这两季看完。

Mini是身量高挑，明艳俏丽的典型苏格兰美女，整脸的雀斑吓坏了不少国人；大笑的时候嘴角快碰到耳朵，倒也别有一番风味。

她外表时髦、强势，有时口出恶言，肩膀宽四肢长，想来打架也寻不到敌手。

皮囊不过装饰，Mini的内心胆怯脆弱，高兴起来跳舞，简直像是猴子在杂耍，透着一股傻劲。

承蒙抬爱，现实生活中曾有数人称赞我与她相像，可我不认为他们了解我，或是Mini。

现在有了最终季，暂时还不得时间观看，也心存恐惧——我们一起放肆过的青春，只怕和太阳下的泡沫消散的一样迅速。

生离死别、自食其力、人情世故、有没有把你们眼中无知又无畏的光芒抹去？

一定有。

皱纹从不可怕，可怕的是人心。



后来在伦敦念书，落地一个月之后便以为朋友庆生的名义前往布里斯托。

和想象中不大一样，这座城市算是英国的大都市之一，也比较工业化。市中心看起来敞敞亮亮，全不似英格兰其他城市小家碧玉般的做派。白天日光充足，干净且宁静；有教堂，有涂鸦，有迷你又现代的码头，有波光粼粼的一小片海；到了晚间，酒精流氓们纷纷出动，他们凑到你耳边赞你美丽，手指停在你腰间，想要和你跳舞；喝到烂醉的人则不停地想要挑逗抚摸你，粗鲁者直接动手动脚。幸运的话，他们中的一些人总能get laid，其余的便在呕吐物与咒骂声中醉到日上三竿。

天佑英格兰，这一年的留学生活让我见识到了五花八门、神出鬼没般的搭讪方式。

扯远了，回到伦敦不久，官方便公布Mini这一代要拍摄final party，诚邀各地的小伙伴们前往布里斯托助兴。

我和班上的德国姑娘都很想去，无奈课程安排，两人的英语那时又都是半斤八两，也没办成railway card，车票钱对于穷学生不算小数目，最终没能成行。

而我从布里斯托带回来的巫女扫帚在离开OPAL 4的时候也被我无奈丢入了垃圾桶。



还记得我们最爱的、总是找不到人生平衡的Cassie吗？她后来就读于剑桥的皇后学院，现在已经毕业，在GOT中赢得了一个长线角色。

真好。

这篇写完，我会把电话铃声再次换回第二季的片头曲。

青春总要散场，我也无法生活在回忆中，但铃声响起时内心有愉悦和钝痛，这样也好。

这样也好。

写的第一篇影评居然是这，关于这季的评价，多半不爽与失望。它没有按你们以为的那样去发展。它不会按你们以为的那样发展。因为你们根本以为不出它是什么样的。

 
你把它当部普通电视剧看，会觉得它多牛逼闪闪。你把它当一部牛逼的神剧看，它就是一电视剧而已。剧情脑残无聊到你了么？到底是不能忍受它的这么无聊平淡，还是不能忍受它的无聊平淡就像你自己的生活一样。不知道是要拍出多诡异奇特的剧情才能满足这帮看客。谁tmd都20多了还整天整天的荷尔蒙过剩激情燃烧。给你英剧不是美剧，你想看哪款的给你拍成哪款的 不管你咋yy 你看的就是它显示看的。作为一部收尾作品 它只要保留它的完整性 它不用给后作留卖点 也不用用新奇特来博眼球。这部显然就是拍给老观众看的。如果是新追剧的会觉得第七季风格突变，毫无道理。剧中演员都是时隔几年后回归。距最长的cassie已经隔了4年之久。所以这部没有跟前作衔接。很多人想用这部剧来怀念过去，可里面一点过去的影子都没有，没拍你们想要的结局。是让你看到一个几年后的人物状态。 这中间几年的留白新观众没有这样一个经历过程，不理解也就算了。不是我不失望，我是失望的是他们果然变的跟现实一样操蛋了。你越老你发现日子越过越没意思。我惊讶的是英国是社会医疗体制是有多好！一个20刚出头、无业青年得了癌症谁也不告诉自己一人抗着默默治疗！！！


这季更细节化，对于effy这样一个在skins算比较传奇的一个角色，最终季让她发生什么好像都显得不够，而且时间只有2集这么短。所以编剧干脆弱化剧情了。这两集台词很少，对手戏很少。前两集注重的人物内心的塑造，给了无数近景与特写，编剧没有编写一个完美的故事桥段，只用镜头记录一段变化过程而不是展现一个完美故事桥段。。effy为什么会爱上她的无能老板。二集里面至少不经意间有十几个镜头是effy偷偷在门缝看jack。effy入狱前也有不少提示。naomi看出来了，dom看出来了，前女上司看出来了，特别是某男同事mark，给足了镜头。特别是庆功宴上那几秒镜头。无比讽刺effy曾经如此冷静聪明。而effy对公司女好友和对dom的态度又跟以前对pandora和jj如出一辙。effy还是那个effy只是在没有当年的傲气，因为你在那帮老鸟眼中连个屁都不是。

非常喜欢dom，演员是以前演潜水艇的。喜欢演员也喜欢角色。更喜欢他最后骂effy那句bitch。这么多年，effy就是一被惯坏的即自私又幸运的bitch。习惯了身边的男人都跟她亲爹似的爱着他照顾她。 总算有人爱她但不骄纵她了。
Emily给了她一巴掌，算是帮Naomi一起打的。 naomi也越来越直白的表现出对effy的不满，“我爱Emily，我不能告诉她，我不指望你能理解。” “你活在自己幻想的世界里，那个世界还不怎么样。” “ - 我以为我迟到了。- 你是迟到了。”
naomi这条线才是传达skins的最终精神的，skins本来没什么精神，都是被后来赋予上的，skins的精神也就是它的感情。她们这对couple是所有人中唯一一对坚持到最后的。
然后无能老板也算是帮现实狠狠的扇了她一巴掌。宝贝，你只是被利用了，还顺带捎上了一个dominic。你没有很特别，你只是在关心你的人心里才是特别。年轻气盛的时候充满傲气，在自己圈子里面又显得那么优越。然后你会发现自己傻逼不是一两点。以她的性格到现在才碰见这么一个人渣，可以烧高香了。
现在effy终于可以学会部那么自私开始关心身边的人与事了，就算她只是因为愧疚和罪恶感。最后在去监狱的车上笑了，终于意识到自己才最可笑，以为能像当年一样轻松的叱咤风云，结果彻底傻逼了一把。也可能早想到有这么一天。终于松了口气。

还有那三个月房租，从第一集effy就担心naomi交不上房租，果然连续3个月都没交上。怪异文艺女naomi，没有像effy一样走进社会，继续在边缘圈子里混，说起三俗的单口相声，很受欢迎，但只是无报酬演出。好朋友得了癌症，为什么我还想着我那三个月房租，人死没办法，活人要吃饭，要付账单，要付房租 ，还要嗑药和party，我不能不想你欠我的那三个月房租。但我后来发达了，我升职加薪还给配了车。我带你住新房，租了一套冷冰冰，空荡荡，毫无人情味的现代化公寓。对与癌症病人，一个比医院还冷寂恐怖的地方。

 不知道英剧是咋做到如此乐而不淫 哀而不伤。死个人都能如此云淡风轻。虽然每2季必死一人 但死的毫不拖泥带水 一般撑不到2集就死了。

额外惊喜是这季摄影指导大概换人了。虽然不很懂 但这镜头运用明显大胆灵活多了，以前摄影美则美矣 力量不够。
这季的光影效果和镜头切换我都大爱。
最爱镜头就是这幕effy去公司总部开会，抬头那么一刹那。世界那么大，你最多也就这么一小点。你以为你渡过了灰暗苦涩的青春期之后发现 哇靠 外面才是一片黑暗。出来混的 果真是要还的。。

2集之内搞定从秋天第二年冬天，剧情发展干净利落（看衣着能看出2集内的四季变化）
这种火箭速度的剧情发展够韩剧拍上个小一百集了吧。够大陆拍出一部xxx升职记了吧

最后又是开放性结局，不过作为最终季改交代的也交代了，naomi死了，但有emily陪她。effy是喜欢dom的，不然不会白给2镜头她看dom工作，然后心情变好。虽然dom很像JJ但effy绝不会主动上JJ，她对dom的感情肯定不是像以前对JJ只把他当成一个爱慕者。就像之前她喜欢freddie，却是跟的cook滚床单。说不定effy出狱会把dom当成想freddie一样可以依靠的人。

在病床上跟naomi的对话总结了这2集，what else have we got? what we are going to do ?

吐槽一点，编剧把他们写的成熟的有些刻意，独立的吓人。还有天才effy的理解能力，dom仅用一个天台就让教会她金融界交易规则，搞笑了吧。这tm是补习数学吗

Effy's going to jail, Naomi's going to die, Emily's going to be even worse than death. Most of the viewer of the last episode of skins, cannot cope with tragic endings like that, including me at least for a while. For me, personally, it's not the death or prison that bothers the most, it is the non-dramatic way of telling almost nonchallently, of the most tragic ending that one can think of is happening right in front our eyes while pretend not a big deal of it. Instead of showing meanings to us, all is simply impled by. Those viewers seek for some kinda closure of the whole skins series aren't gonna get it, for there left so many lose ends; those who hope for drama aren't gonna get it, disappointed by its realistic telling of dramatic event and its anti-clamax of an ending; Those who expect twists and turns would surprise and flip at the extreme lack of it. Despite all that, we should decide to love it, after all that is the end we get in life.

The first thing needs to be clarified is that television becomes no less inferior than literature these days, at least for some good television shows like Skins, it is true. A fact we need to come to terms with. And as no sensible readers would curse the writer and demand him to rewrite an ending that he doesn't like, television is not an negotiation as well. For those who think it is, well you are so self-involved to hook on the delusion of it. That's the sole lie the life-shows nowadays are depending on you to believe, a conviction that the power's in your own hand. For Christ sake, what a convenient flattering that is! As sensible viewers, we see right through it, we accept what we got and try to appreciate the beauty of it.

After all, Skins fire. As the title suggests, it is about lights, destruction and rebirth. And a terrible beauty is born. Adulthood is such a terrible beauty. Especially for Effy, once aloof, indifferent, omniscient goodness in her little circle, washed by fire, and reborn into human. Of course, there's some sacrifice along the way. So walking out of paradise full of drugs, parties and hormones, here she is, taking three steps of becoming human as we know it.

Step one, compassion.
"I want to feel something, I want to be hurt! Come and hit me!" The girl ran into the middle of the street and exclaimed a death wish in front of world. That's near the ending of Effy's teenage years, almost the last we see her. Since then, apparently, the wish has come true. In fire, we see Effy's feeling, invisible as it always is, all over the place. The way she bites her finger nails watching Naomi on stage doing shitty comedy and being laughed at, the way she cries when being yielded at the truth of Naomi's illness, the way she goes blank hearing the doctor said the drug doesn't work and the way stares Naomi lying on the CT scan thereafter runs out of room, and the way she panics holding Naomi in her arms puking all over the place-- we never have seen Effy going through all levels of emotions before, not merely for herself, but for her best friend, for Naomi and Emily. With herself, she can be tough, takes it on her own: "I am fine", when Naomi asks she used three words as such to conclude it, even if she's not. Far from doing nothing, as Naomi accuses her to be, she's doing everything she could to hold it together, being tough for her, can't stop feeling for her but has to conceal it for her. That is not sth she told us, That's sth we sense. For those who love Naomi and Emily with such a bias to take in everything they say, myself included, might look beyond the surface and see they are blocked by own individuality as well. In fact, compassion is all Effy is in fire, "she has such big love inside of her, just needs to be let out, and the possibility to let out scares the hell of her" Effy's mom knows her nature well. Well, at least she smiles at the end, typical Effy smile, as if to say "you don't know me at all", or maybe this time, it says: "I can feel after all, i feel something". Compassion we know that is what makes us all human, and from the moment she feels it, Effy is no longer mysterious and inappoachable fairie, she is one of us, human.

Step two, mortality.
Naomi's death really provided an occasion for mourning, mourning for the beauty being tragically destroyed. It is sad, true. But it is sensible, as we consider it. After all it becomes a tradition of skins, to kill one favorite character at a time of generation. And for generation 2, Freddie is definitely not the most favorite one. It is the thing had between Naomi and Emily that makes the most wonderful thing that the make-believe world of skins had created for us. And let's face it, the most beautiful thing as it always, is irreplacable. There's no carnation for that, no reborn in it (as they are lesbians) therefore, it is immortal. This is the reason they can't survive the mortal world of adulthood. One of them has to be destroyed, and the other along with it. And as if killing our favorite couple isn't cruel enough, Effy needs to witness and learn from the tragic of all this, to see the only positive unyielding love that exists in her past world being worn out by an incurable disease of mankind. From the moment her best friend told her the illness, Effy knows it's gonna go down like this, she knows it too well, so she can't stand watching Naomi pretend like nothing and make fun of herself in a comedy, yet she complains in the most minute ways, pissing Naomi about the rent which essentially means the burden all weighs down on her- she needs to be the rock, and it's fucking hard. Neither can she offer comforts to her like innocent Dom, cause she knew it better, the truth hurts so much that she can't fathom a way to act it otherwise. Again, like I said, Mortality takes its toll, for Effy, it is the farewell paid to the old world of her past with Naomily in it, a burning ritual she has to experience descending to the world of works in her fantasy, a brave new world of men. And Naomily is the sacrifice, given that Homosexuality implies in literature a longing for death in itself. The poet and beauty must die, so the rest of us can keep on living.

Step three, helplessness.
At times we can't help but wonder why things always go terribly wrong with Effy, no matter how fucking together they all seem in the first glimpse! The onmiscent soul of this childhood circle stumbles way out of their idealistic small world and find she's merely a tool used by more onmiscent forces way sophisticated than she is. Helplessness is the condition of humanity. It breaks her charm, make her helpless. Emily says: "We idolized her." Cook's fucking Dad: "You are too pretty for your own good, that's why you destroy everything you touch." Such are the contrast between surface and core of Effy. Lights and destruction all sealed in one, waiting to be born. And in skins fire, it burst alive. It is interesting to note that in retrospect, everyone around Effy ends in various tragic ways: her parents separated, her brother got hit by a car, Freddie got killed and Cook went down for his revenge, and we thought Naomily is the only exception for they are special, how naive we are! There's a certain helpless gravity for tragic in Effy that makes her so appealing and at once so heartending. It almost seems nothing stays with her, under circumstances like that one almost certainly can't help but hold itself to blame. God knows how she serectly took the fault herself for all lost in life! In front of the mass of life, for the first time, we see her had no clue about what to do? It is Naomi in sick bed push some sense in her again, "Seriously what do we got, Effy? Well, I am going to die, what you gonna do? " That probably reminds her who she is and should be. After that, we see her picking up Emily at airport, possibly she called her up and reveal the truth as she should in the first place; then she made deal with victoria to tell on boss under sole condition that dom is untouched. She made the right choice eventually, as she used to be. Better late than never, taking responsibility for what she did like a fucking adult. It takes her edge off, which still makes me angry, not at her, but at the fucking real world of ours that rounded with such a flame in the first place. Yet the most helpless as it always was in Effy is the fact that she has to play the help all her life, which means no one helps Her, that she is truly THE most helpless one. That leads to off-putting love affair with her boss. But seriously cut her some slack, please. Leave aside the fact that boss is adulthood look-alike of Freddie, probably an unintended happy coincidence, she's lonely, and extremely so after a load of pressure landed on her, taking care of best friend mentally and financially, watchig them being happy and all that. What do we expect her to do, instead of cutting herself and going mental in the bathroom, isn't it much healthy distraction to find a man to love and entertain a little fantasy that somebody got her back? Dom and Boss, she picked the one who pays her rent, so that Naomi didn't have to. And that, for me, makes character of Eff, most lovable and lamentable beyond all.

The Effy who used to smile her mysterious smiles that says "you don't know me at all", still smiles at us in the end. Is it sort of mock or self mock? for many a thousand viewers shall this, her mock, mock out of their retardness after seeing all she went through still don't see who the hell she is; mock herself from dreaming our world to be hers therefore making effort to it; mock grown-ups down, and others yet ungotten and unborn that shall have cause to curse the city that bereaves her Eden and beloved from earth.

Skins fire comes to an end. The followings, in this order, comes pure and rise. It is interesting to note that in the trailor the order has been rearenged: it should be rise, fire, and pure. That is to say the actually serie begins in the medres, classic order of story telling. And it should be expected to return to rise in a circle, suggesting to a eternal reoccurrence of the proccess. Therefore, we have reasons to believe fire is the brutalest one, perhaps things would pick up tone a bit: in pure, it might smooth out a bit, going for depth; rise probably going to be full of struggles but worth it. But eventually, as the trailor so artisticaly hints at: three individual under one skin, going through phases, transforming into one another's life. Step by step, we walk out of ourself, into hers, into his then eventually back to our own skins. All change and changed utterly, a terrible beauty is born.

一天兩季的節奏，刷完了皮囊，停不下来的想要看完。

第一二季的時候喚起了好多關於大英國的回憶，依然像藏在心底的真愛一樣，對其無法釋懷。

第三四季出現了全劇最愛的一對couple，Naomi和Emily，經歷了出柜以及後來的各種shit，最終還是毫無懸念的在一起了，只是吵闹分和的过程实在让人揪心的虐。特別讓人安心的一對兒，覺得不管發生什麽她們都不會分開。尤其是第四季第二集裡面的兩機車少女簡直是全劇最愛的一段！

第五六季不太喜歡，第三屆小孩裡面，Franky的逆襲簡直不能接受，太突然轉變太大。Mini簡直就是美劇誤入。男生們也很pussy，Cook就是American Pie里面的Stiff。

第七季，孩子們長大了。後媽編劇讓Naomi得了cancer。。。虐哭



过了两天了，还觉得陷在剧情里面无法自拔。虽然高中生活没有剧中那么颓丧的drugs啊叶子啊party啊，但是也够混乱了。比起美剧中那些高中生，skins孩子们的高中才是真正的青春！

       第一次看skins是09年，那年我大二，当时已经出到了第三季。有个朋友很喜欢这部剧，也一直推荐我看。一天逛校园资源论坛的时候看到一个1-2季的合辑时候，下载完才开始看。当时年轻些，和多数人看到的一样，觉得skins就是讲一群荷尔蒙分泌旺盛的青少年，开了一场青春狂欢的爬梯。在这些角色和情结中，我们可以代入很多，比如对酒精的沉迷，对性爱的追求，甚至对大麻和烟草的依赖，还有如Cassie对Sid无可奈何的Forever love。那时我希望自己可以和他们一样，对家庭和父母的期待无所顾忌，甚至背离宗教和信仰，不管学校，不顾未来，只为青春，只为狂欢。
       从第三季开始，在评论下说要弃剧的人越来越多。我们对每两季换一批角色的设定不习惯，也更愿意相信第一二季的角色并没有离开。但是即便嫌弃，也这么两季两季的看下来了，并且越看越清晰。我开始认为编剧父子不仅仅是在讲荷尔蒙而已，而每两季都会有人死去，更像是编剧试图在以这种深刻的方式叙述他们想要对世界和青少年的看法。
       不和睦的家庭、精神疾病、性取向、药物滥用和死亡，每一个话题单独拎出来都很沉重，skins把它们都囊括进来。在第六季中Mini看着宝宝的那个挣扎表情，让我震惊到流泪。每个人心底都怀着最纯真的善意，对家人，对后代，这些感情都能够在每一季中看到。Mini父母离异，她的妈妈经常和不同的男人来往，甚至在家里大声做爱。她从破处开始就面临着选择，被朋友甚至男朋友认可，还是做一个特立独行的处女。Mini之后怀孕走投无路找到爸爸，习惯逃脱责任的爸爸成最后一点希望，却最终也将她置于不顾。Alo从得知Mini怀孕之后被惊吓到躲起来，Mini一个人去堕胎的时候看着宝宝的样子强忍着眼泪还是哭了出来。原本，Mini的家庭可以不破裂，她可以成为一个很优秀的女生，她可以不怀孕，她可以不要去面对要不要生下小孩的抉择。家庭破裂是被选择的，拥有怎样的青春是自己选择的，进行有保护措施的性爱是可以选择的，生小孩是一切选择之后产生的选择。所以，skins这些戏，这些一个个的悲剧和短暂的狂欢，是源于我们自己一个又一个的选择。
        翻skins的照片，除了很多人说弃剧，还有很多人说第七季烂。可是skins究竟讲的是什么，是嬉皮，是大麻，是酒精，是性，是青春，是狂欢？每个人都有自己的解读。Skins是这一切，又不仅仅是这一切。我们的青春的状态，源于家庭，源于社区，源于社会，也终究源于自己。如果家庭完整些，如果不是管教太宽松或是太严格，他们不会想要从传统中剥离出来。如果学校负责职业规划的大姐能再专业些，没准能安排好几个学生的生计。如果对爱情能够有所理解，Sid对Cassie的爱应该会有更多的回应。男孩特别是卢瑟尔对女神模样的女孩情有独钟，好像流了很多年的哈喇子，一旦有机会一定要上位，并且有多久待多久，还必须的念念不忘，特别骄傲。不管Cassie对他的爱有多深，似乎也看不到Cassie身上的美。讽刺的是，Cassie在第七季成了一位万众瞩目的模特。
       我很喜欢第七季，我觉得第七季升华了skins一直在叙述的庞杂的青春轶事。青春时期因为各种原因，他们选择了一种极端开放的姿态绽放青春，甚至因此而被逼面对死亡。第七季中，曾经年轻的人不再年少，Effy开始穿得像office lady，精通Excel，和boss打得火热。虽然在烦心的夜晚也会换上衣服去夜店跳一跳，但是Effy已经长大了，她和每个人一样都长大了。她不再因为别人的选择而精神分裂，她的生活开始由自己掌控。她选择怎么对待爱她的人和她爱的人，而她选择和大多数的年轻女孩一样，对帅气多金的boss情有独钟，利用爱她的可怜男孩取得情报，并且被boss利用完之后抛弃，以及让爱她的男孩溃不成军。这些都是她自己选择的结果。很多人接受不了Effy蹲号子，但你可以是Effy，你在你长大之后，在你面对这种利益抉择的时候，能够拿她做反面例子，做另一个正确的选择，那么Effy这个号子就蹲得有价值。
       对Cassie在第七季中的故事，还是没能给安排一个真爱，多少是有些怨念的。但是大家都挺开心的，毕竟大家心爱的女神成了模特，前途明朗。仔细想想，Cassie在很多时候都很冷静，比如即便孤独也拒绝滥交，以及在第一次为高端杂志做模特时拒绝中年多金男的毒品，少有朋友却不过多参与妓女邻居的邀请。她的生活并没有糟到没办法解开，她有美而不自知的特质，并且心系家庭。这样的女孩应该得到幸运的眷顾，而且编剧确实是这么做的。
       Cook的故事很沉重，在前面他为Freddie杀死一位变态的心理医生，并在第七季中一边逃亡一边做一位毒贩子。逃亡的时间，Cook有很多思考的时间，编剧也把他从没大脑的种马转变为有思想有担当的男人。Cook在第七季中面对了很多艰难的选择，并且每一个选择都能将他指向险要的境地。Charlie要Cook和他做爱，Cook第一次拒绝免去他一开始的杀身之祸，第二次因为Charlie提起他的往事没有拒绝，却将她这个定时炸弹绑在了身边，并最终害死了相爱的Emma。但Cook没有再杀死boss，是对此前杀人罪行的自我救赎。
        结局很多人不喜欢，因为剧从青春中起，就应该从青春中落。比如青春应该完美，Effy不应该蹲号子；青春应该有爱情，Cassie应该和Sid团聚；青春应该张扬跋扈，Cook应该杀死boss并且和bitch私奔。但这一切都没有发生，因为我们成长了，我们应该思考，做出一些正确的选择，为自己的人生开路。

       Cook最后的独白

you think you know death
but you don't
until you've seen it
really seen it
and it gets under your skin and lives inside you

you also think you know life
you stand on the edge of things and watch it go by
but you are not living it
not really
you're just a tourist
a ghost
and then you see it
really see it
and it gets under your skin and lives inside you

and there's no escape
there's nothing to be done, and you know what?
it's good, it's a good thing
and that's all I've got to say about it.

五六季只强忍着看了一集，受不了爆炸头和异装癖这些小losers的中二生活，觉得简直是蠢。
无比想念爱翻白眼儿的Michelle和到处打架的Cook，想念Tony的裸体床单，想念Cassie说「lovely」时候的笑，想念第二季结束时葬礼上的礼花，想念Cook的小虎牙和Effy的蓝色眼睛。

然后有一天，听说你们长大了。

【DUST】
开头，Effy被女主管吆来喝去盗用idea的时候，我一丁点也不同情她。因为我知道这是Effy，她会用她的方式让所有人payback。
于是我十分欣慰并且不出所料的看到了Effy利用追求她的小矮子的数据倒卖股票当上了优秀交易员，并且成功的搞上了大boss搞走了女主管。
长大了的Effy一如既往的所向披靡四处通途，似乎能让人忘记了她曾崩溃在阳光下的草地上，把自己反锁在浴室里手腕上的血铺满半个地板。
她有了车有了司机，有了租伦敦大公寓的钱，Naomi看着她陪客户赌博时年老的客户搭上Effy肩膀的手说「你竟然不觉得恶心」时，Effy终于融入了这个成年人的世界，金钱，股票，期货，债券，伦敦金融街，男上司，老客户。
只是Effy的眼睛还是那么蓝，她不明白这不再是那个她仅凭自己就能压倒一切的世界，这个世界里，有欺骗和利用，也有法律和规则——尽管可笑，可是你得遵守它。
其实我没想到这个故事会这样结尾——我是说从金融街开始——没有想到那个谁都瞧不起的女孩会乖乖的变成一个交易员，我有那么一丁点儿想念曾经cares about nothing的Effy，尽管我知道这可能才是合理的结局。
至于最后Effy的熟悉的笑容，虽然看起来没什么不同，但是总有些什么是再也找不回来了的。这话是废话，但是我找不到更好的表达。
这次她没赢，真令人沮丧。那个queen一样的Effy竟然没赢。
flame to dust，好像游戏里的利剑拿到现实世界只是一串代码，这另人沮丧。

【FAME】
如果说有什么比Effy成为交易员更让人哭笑不得的，那大概就是Cassie成了咖啡厅女招待吧。
她穿着暗蓝色的工作服，头发梳了起来，住在一栋乱糟糟的公寓里，甚至跟别人说「我不怎么抽烟」。
不知道为什么，我一直对Cassie在刚出场时手腕上当作手链来戴的一个大兔子塑胶发圈念念不忘，好像是粉色或者橘色，款式就是中国的街边小店里最常见的那种一个塑胶的兔子脑袋。Cassie戴着那个发圈，胡乱的往嘴里塞illegal的药片，她站在长椅上，假装要飞起来，她冲所有人笑，说「Safe」和「Lovely」。
那是我在头两季中最喜欢的角色，我不知道她为什么能那么美好而无辜，就像她衣服上的小鸭子和手上的发圈一样。
虽然如今，她只是将「我曾经试图将自己饿死」一笔带过的当一件奇闻异事讲出来。
而她在想要逃离海边的狼狈的父亲的同时，也在逃离曾经那么狼狈却美好易碎的自己。
于是再没有听到她说一句「Lovely」。
也开始有男人为她打架了，也开始有人注意到她的美了，我不合时宜的想起来Sid，Sid你还记得Cassie么？
我总幻想着Cassie在街头能遇到谁，Tony，Michelle，或者Sid。
或者Sid。
我大概还是那种学不会明白旧日情怀都是档案馆里的碎纸片的人，拎出来看可能会沾一手灰，并且并不能够继续。
Cassie一句话带过的东西太多了，好在她还是会站在窗口，假装要飞。

【DOWN】
Cook是我一开始特别讨厌的一个角色，不知道为什么，就是讨厌他，看见他就想按快进。
后来有一集我忘了什么前因后果，Naomi跟Cook说「You just live a bit harder than everybody else does」，于是我很没出息的又看剧看哭了。
可能讨厌Cook是因为我在他身上看到了自己的影子：因为太在乎所以怕遭遇伤害与背叛所以装作什么都不在乎，最后搞得大家都讨厌他的什么也不在乎而让他陷入新一轮循环那就是索性把事情搞得更糟糕，到最后明明全身心的碎的七零八落却还是一副so what的样子。
a bit harder，哈，a bit harder。
我唯一觉得让我满意的结局，竟然在Cook身上，终于看到他露出了「I care」的神情，终于看到他选择了一次逃避，然后是闷闷的英腔画外音。
我知道你不会再把事情搞得更糟，我知道你终于有了恐惧。
其实想说一句特别矫情的话，有了恐惧，也就有了爱的能力了不是么。

于是血肉横飞的现实世界，狠狠地甩给中二病们一记响亮的耳光。

       第七季编剧正一神经病，把naomi和effy俩人性格调换了，堕落太妹effy忽然玩转金融界，好端端的高材生naomi弄成单口相声+癌症，韩剧吗？这么狗血剧情！！！干嘛emily到美国不跟着一起去那生活，不是说：“Really I'd die for you..”吗？却留在伦敦独自die！！！天天傻B颓废喝酒吃大麻，神经病剧情！！！

    但为了这对最爱的拉拉还是继续追剧~
   
    由第一季首播到现在第七季，看着第一部接触的英剧就快剧终，真心舍不得，年龄相仿，感觉和她们一起长大，没想到她们的未来是这么的狗血，真痛心，青春那么苦逼，长大也那么无奈~